never heard anyone experience that besides me..maybe theres another schizo here that can relate
This happened when I was like 18..for some reason, out of nowhere, I became acutely aware of my own mortality and that of others, and the impermanence of all things..i would look at a big building and think "this will disappear incredibly soon, and be gone forever"..i would read a classic book like don quijote and think "this will be gone soon and be as if it never existed"..its like I understood for the first time what humanity is in the grand scheme of things, but I felt it at a visceral level...all human activities and endeavors seemed ridiculous and pointless..it also amazed me how crazy our lives are, us being able to live here in this world and communicate among each other (this blew my mind at the time)
Anyway that was the gist of it, it went away after a couple of months...was that ego death or what the fuck?
I had a similar experience when I was 11 years old, not about the mortality of all things, but rather the realization of how humans create their own world structure based on a very limited environment and ascribe powerful meaning to it, when in reality the whole scaffolding is quite fragile to a certain extent because of the infinite ways things could have been different
sounds like a profound experience you have had and like a glance behind the veil. did it impact your perspective on life in any way? did it just occur randomly?
Thats exactly what it felt like, a glance behind the veil
It didnt really impact my life, cause the feeling went away
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